5 days

There are 5 days left until the marathon.  I'm off-track right now, which is a blessing and a curse. I have the week to take it easy and relax. I also have the week to read the Runner's World Forums too many times, worry about my pace, and now the weather.  The forecast right now is a low of 66 and high of 95.  Not a pretty picture.  I run so much slower in the heat. It basically puts all lofty goals out the window.  I am going to stay positive and still shoot for a reasonable time. 
I get teary-eyed at least once a day thinking about all of this. I'm going to do a marathon. Wow! It's kind of scary. I have a great track record of avoiding scary things (1 reason I'm single), so it's takes courage to show up on race day. I'd like to say that I did 21 miles and call it good. But that isn't good enough.  When I first started running, I said it was the one thing in my life I have control over.  I sometimes feel like I don't have control over my marital status. I don't have control over what those higher up are telling me to do in my profession. But with running, I do have control.  I will say that to myself again and again come Saturday, amid the heat and tiredness. I, with the help from God, can do this. I can run this. I can give it my all. I can finish this race.  It is me who determines the outcome of this journey.  I am taking an active role in my life and I love it!!!